A digital actuality (VR) work premiering on the South by Southwest (SXSW) pageant in Austin, Texas will let viewers expertise the story of Carolyn Mercer, a transgender girl within the UK who survived electroshock conversion remedy meant to “treatment” her gender dysphoria as a teen.
Within the Present of Being (9 March-11 March), by the Texas-born, Los Angeles-based director and digital storyteller Cameron Kostopoulos, is the second VR undertaking they’ve created with the purpose of serving to audiences perceive the transgender expertise. “Proper now, with how below assault the trans and queer communities are, it’s actually necessary to succeed in throughout the aisle and to ask individuals to see out of your perspective,” Kostopoulos tells The Artwork Newspaper.
Along with the VR components, the work entails audiences sporting haptic vests, sleeves and gloves in order that they’ll really feel the rhythm of Mercer’s heartbeat and respiration as her story is recounted, in addition to the tremors she felt for many years after receiving electroshock therapy. The method, which concerned her being strapped to a chair and shocked as photographs of ladies’s clothes had been projected on the wall in entrance of her, affected Mercer for many years, inflicting her to shake uncontrollably at any time when she considered it, and main her to cover her true id till she was in her 70s.
A nonetheless from Within the Present of Being, by Cameron Kostopoulos Courtesy Cameron Kostopoulos
Those that participate within the work won’t really feel the identical sort of ache Mercer did, however will expertise a full physique vibration that’s “fairly intense”, Kostopoulos says. However in addition to simulating worry and ache, the haptics within the work can even “create a sense of defiance”, the director provides, in addition to the sense of liberation, peace and restoration Mercer felt when she lastly embraced life as a lady.
“The message that our piece ends on within the closing title display screen is that conversion remedy isn’t remedy,” Kostopoulos says. “You may’t change somebody’s sexuality, you possibly can’t change somebody’s gender id. You may’t make somebody be cis, you possibly can’t make somebody be binary in the event that they’re non-binary. It’s not one thing that must be cured.”
Mercer’s story is especially well timed for the reason that administration of US President Donald Trump has been shifting to erase the popularity of transgender people as a matter of public coverage, placing an already susceptible neighborhood at additional threat. In keeping with a nationwide psychological well being survey performed by the Trevor Venture in 2024, 90% of LGBTQ+ younger individuals stated their well-being was negatively impacted by latest political discourse, and 46% of transgender and nonbinary younger individuals had significantly thought of suicide prior to now yr. Mercer herself solely not too long ago began talking about her experiences publicly, maintaining her true id a secret from even household and buddies for many of her life. “That is why it’s necessary for us to be sharing this story, as a result of, if she hadn’t come ahead, there’s so many like these which can be simply by no means instructed,” Kostopoulos says.

A nonetheless from Within the Present of Being, by Cameron Kostopoulos Courtesy Cameron Kostopoulos
The format of VR additionally permits tales like Mercer’s to be shared in a extra visceral manner, one thing Kostopoulos found with their first undertaking, Physique of Mine, which allowed customers to enter the physique of one other gender. It received the Particular Jury Award at SXSW in 2023 and was proven in Venice that very same yr.
“Immersive artwork is usually a actually highly effective instrument,” Kostopoulos says, in comparison with media like movie or audio solely, which keep a third-person perspective and may come throughout as confrontational, particularly round delicate topics like gender id. “It’s very straightforward to cease a film or to press pause at a podcast or shut a tab. However if you’re in an immersive expertise,” they clarify, “you’re feeling such as you’re truly there, you’re so more likely to have interaction with it and hear and be receptive to what you’re listening to.”
This was true with Physique of Mine, which Kostopoulos says was proven to audiences everywhere in the world, from dad and mom who weren’t very receptive to their youngsters’s chosen pronouns to 80-year-old trans girls who had been dwelling life on their phrases.

A nonetheless from Within the Present of Being, by Cameron Kostopoulos Courtesy Cameron Kostopoulos
“Apparently sufficient, the individuals who had been most emotional had been truly the cisgender audiences,” Kostopoulos says. “I feel it’s as a result of, although these tales are particular, they’re additionally very common. Physique of Mine is greater than gender dysphoria, it’s nearly having a physique and feeling snug in your physique. And this new piece, it’s a narrative about conversion remedy, however greater than something, it’s a narrative about authenticity and being your self it doesn’t matter what the world tells you to be.”
Like Physique of Mine, which has now been distributed to LGBTQ+ centres in 40 states throughout the US together with VR headsets, Kostopoulos hopes to share Within the Present of Being—which was co-produced by the New York-based VR exhibition and manufacturing house Onassis ONX—with a bigger viewers. The purpose is to “present people who find themselves making selections about entry to healthcare and gender affirming care” what’s at stake, they are saying, particularly since it’s nonetheless authorized in half of US states to carry out conversion remedy on youngsters, “and that should change”.
Within the Present of Being, 9 March-11 March, South by Southwest, Austin, Texas